8/30/09

I am very fortunate to be able to have people that care about me in my life.
It's reassuring to know that there are, in fact, people I can count on.
I've been blessed with amazing friends, and an unbelievable family.
I'm thankful I have all these wonderful people in my life.

I know I'm not the most pleasant person to be around, but these people put up with my shit anyway.
I know I don't say it enough, but I love you all.
And you can count on me.

8/28/09

I believed.
I believed that everything would turn out right in the end.
What a fool I am.
Now I'm stuck thinking, "Will things ever change?"
I feel like such a hypocrite.
I feel monotonous, repetitive, and resentful.
I feel like walking away, and being there for me.
Really, I feel like a bitch.

8/12/09

"I was thinking just today about how we used to play barbie dolls and make-up.
Tea parties, dress up. I remember how we'd fight. We made up and laughed all night.
Wish we were kids again. My sister my friend."

I miss you, a lot.
I wish we were still as close as we used to be.
I wish you didn't decide to abandon your family for your boyfriend.
I wish it wasn't my fault you don't come around anymore.
I love you.

"Do you think you could come and see me sometime soon? We could just hang out like we used to. It's late and I should go, but I can't hang up the phone until I tell you what I don't tell you enough. Even though at times it seemed we were more like enemies, I'd do it all again. My sister my friend."